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I can't help you fix yourself, but atleast I can say I tried [Tuesday
May24th8:40pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

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So cut my wrists and black my eyes [Wednesday
May18th12:24pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Let's see. Monday was somewhat stressful. Math was math. In spanish, like I siad, we didn't film on Sunday so we had to do it 2nd period, right before it was due. I'd have to say it was about 2 minutes long and we filmed it in about 10 minutes, messing up like 5 times. After all of that it wouldn't play on the TV so he just looked from the camera and said good job. I'm happy he did, but I'm pretty sure he didn't understand anything, saw somethign infront of him, and winged it because that was definitly not a good job lol...But I'm not complaining. The rest of school was okay, I don't really member alot. Tuesday was the same. I just remember english because it pissed me off once again. She assigned another book. She says, "oh good news, I didn't think I'd be able to fit the book in before school was over, but I found a way, and you'll be reading every night. I want you to go through and underline, circle, and highlight these copies until you get your books. When you get your books I want to see them filled with post it notes on every page. I want chapters 1, 2, and 3 done for tomorrow and all questions answered. Some people say Charles Dickens writing is harder to understand than Shakesphere and it's a historical novel. It's a great book." Which obviously means, IT SUCKS. I'm so frustrated. Here I am, trying to bring all my grades up, and there she is, making it even harder. I'm so sick of this. I've lost count of how many books she's made us read. I know it's around the 9th or 10th one. Blahhh. On a good note, my history grade is one point from a B and my science grade is a B+ again. I also fixed my team rec grade when I told him I wasn't skipping his classes, I was on vacation and at competition. So now that should be fine. So now all I need to do is make sure I keep them up and actually study for the finals... Besides school, and the fact that I lost the one of two out of 6 aunts I was close with, thing's have been going well. My mom and I are fighting less, and Doug's being amazing like always. Thing's are starting to be okay again. My dad's leaving for my aunts funural on Thursday. We can't go, which upsets me alot.. On Saturday I have a cheerleading thing I'm helping out with and then I'm leaving until Sunday sometime :) Today was okay. Except, as you all probably know by now, english. I can honestly say I hate her. Anyways. Linds has been driving me home everyday and that's where I just came from. We had an early release and now I'm going to pass out for a while.

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I never want to be anything, except everything to you [Sunday
May15th2:20pm]
I don't really remember anything that happened on Thursday except that I stayed after school with Coggin to take a test that I got back the next day and got a D. I know I suck. On Friday I don't remember anything except that I had allllot of tests and I had to preform my Shakesphere thing. I was so nervous that I was shaking. I did okay though. I'm just glad everything's over. I have alot to say about Mrs.Bordue but I'm not going to say anything except that she sucks and I hate her. Irina and Lindey and I were supposed to stay after school Friday to film our spanish movie but we didn't have the camera so we planned to do it today. I got my progress report. I have 2 C's. One is 2 point's away from a B which I can bring up. The other is in US history. I'm trying to bring it up but it's so hard when you have a teacher that doesn't teach right. I don't know these next 27 days left of school I'm gonna have to work my ass off. Whatevvv. On Saturday I woke up and showered and got ready then went to Doug's house. We went to the store and got some stuff and got iceys that turned my mouth blue for like 8 hours. We went back to his house for a while and watched some movies and then later went to his grandmas. We helped set up some stuff outside for her and then watched TV there for a little. We got home and watched more movies upstairs and then after everything we ordered pizza and waited downstairs. We went back upstairs and I started not to feel well and he held me and I fell asleep in his arms. He rubbed my head and gave me little kisses and covered me up :) He's amazing. Around 11:00 my dad picked me up and I got home at 12:00. I went to sleep and then woke up trying to figure out what time we were filming for spanish today. I finally get a hold of Irina and by the time we got a hold of Lindsey it was too late because Irina had to leave. Gahh so tomorrow we're going it 2nd period HOPEFULLY. And it's due 3rd period. Isn't that awesome. If it doesn't work I'm gonna effing cry. ....Wow. My mom just came in crying. She told me my aunts dying. She won't make it through the day. Omg.






Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Til the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby baby we belong together
...I love you soo much..







*Edit*
She's gone.

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there


RIP Aunt Suzanne:'(
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Booo, you whore. [Wednesday
May11th3:29pm]
[ mood | ... ]

HersheyCollapse ) was amazing. I went to school on Friday for first period, then waited for Jessie to come pick me up. She wasn't there and I started to call my mom because I didn't want to be late but then she came in the office. Her brother had her keys all the way in Concord adn she had to wait for him before she got me. She got me then we got my stuff and went to the airport. We were the last people to board and left like 5 minutes after we sat down lol. I didn't like the flight over. We flew into Phili and got stuck in traffic. By the time we got to the hotel it was pretty late. Kaylee and I drove to our hotel once her mom picked us up and we went to eat dinner at this place right next to it. On Saturday we went to watch the youth team preform and they did well. After we went to the chocolate factory place and I got some presents for people. Then we went to the Hershey garden or something like that to kill time. We got to the hotel and I was ready to do my make up when I realized I had no brushes... Kaylee had to call her mom and we got some. Competition was okay. We didn't do as well as we wanted to, but it's the last competition, and next year is going to be amazing. That night Kurtz came home with us. The next day we went to Hershey park which was amazing. I went on allll the rollercostars :D Even the one that goes 0 to 72 mph in 2 seconds. It was a very very fun day. The next day I got brought back to the other hotel and left with Shannon who was following Delanna and who was followed by Kristina to the airport. Delanna didn't ask for directions so we ended up driving to NJ and had to turn around and had a high speed chase to the airport, which by the wya we still couldn't find. We were going 95 in like a 50 mph high way. We almost died about 5 times. We got to the air port at 1:00 and our plane leaves at 1:05. So we missed it. They wouldn't hold a flight for 5 more mintues for over 14 minutes. Cool. We decided to mak eth ebest of it though. They had face paiting and we all got it done and then we started to stunt for everyone. Time went pretty fast and on the way home I was watching thirteen with Ames and Missie but the flight was so fast I didn't get anything from it. I got home blah blah. We ate dinner as a family and my dad told me that my aunt has less than two weeks to live. I didn't even get to say goodbye to her. I started crying and I still want to even now. It's kind of like it's not real. It's not fair. To top it off I'm really not sure if I have anyone who honestly cares anymore. It feels recently that I lost something. That I must have done something wrong for how I'm being treated. I really don't understand it. But I guess that's why I've been crying myself to sleep everynight. School's stressful. But I'm trying to manage. I have a few more things to make up. Hopefulyl after Friday it'll all be over. This weekend I'm seeing Doug. Atleast that's good. This is long. Sorry.


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and i feel like you dont care anymore... [Tuesday
May10th8:18pm]
[ mood | sad ]

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Hershey was more fun than Florida. I'll update about that later when I have time to...Um breathe.

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So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me [Thursday
May5th10:36pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

My flight on Tuesday was okay. It was night so I saw all the lights and it was pretty. Scary at first though cause over the clouds I could see the thunder storm. Literally. There was flashes of lightning that lit up areas of the clouds. It was amazing. We got into Connecticut around 12:00 and slept in a hotel. We left at 6:00 in the morning and I got home around 9:45. I changed adn went into school. I did part one and two of my english testing in one day lol. Needless to say I got alot of work in my other classes as well. The ones I got to go to atleast. Today when I got into math I almost shot myself. I missed like 2 or 3 lessons and I have no idea what so ever what's going on...But I need to do the work anyways so it's hard. I have so much to do in all my classes.Collapse ) All by Tuesday. Ehh. I got home and started on that. I got some done. I went to practice and realized I got completely taken out of my one of my stunts because I wasn't there. I understand why, it just frustrates me that I didn't even want to miss them. Practice went well. I came home and showered and now I'm packing for tomorrow. I'm going into first period (math) tomorrow a little early to try to be taught something and staying for that one class then leaving. Jessies picking me up and then I'm getting my stuff at my house and going to the air port. Our flight leaves at 10:40. We'll be in Hershey around 12:00ish. We compete Saturday and then I'm sure Kaylee and I are going to Hershey park on Sunday. My flight home is on Monday around 1 something. Expect alot of pictures when I get home.

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i try not to think about the pain i feel inside [Monday
May2nd9:51pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

So it's been like 10 days since I've updated. Saturday the flight was okay. It was rainy in Connecticut, and sunny when I got into Florida so I was happy. I'm not really sure what we did each day... So I'll just say the stuff I remember. I went to Malibu. It's a place kinda like funspot but bigger and tons better. I went to the beach. I went to my old neighborhood. Saw my old school, my old house, my old babysitter. Went to alot of places I used to go when I lived there. Called my old best friend. Went shopping 3 times and spent over $300.00. Got pictures done for my grandmas birthday. Went to Red Lobster with my family for her birthday. Found out my aunt is not getting better from her cancer like my grandma thinks, but that she's only going to get worse until it ends. My grandma finds out when we leave. And I can't say anything. It's horrible. We had a cook out here and alot of people were supposed to come but not many did. I went to the beach again and got alot more color than the frist time. I saw my moms best friend and her children that I love. I went to this bead place and made a very pretty bracelet and got a martini glass necklace. Got water poured on my head while I was sleeping by Chuck. Got him back by pouring a whole glass of water down his shirt. I rode on a tractor. Then drove it. Lol. Took alot of pictures that I'll post when I get home. And alot more that I don't rememebr right now. I leave for home tomorrow. At 6. I get into connecticut around 12 in the morning. I guess now I'm staying in a hotel. Then we're leaving at 5 in the morning on Wednesday and I'm still goign to school by 3rd period because I will shoot myself if I miss anymore. Good news though, my gay spanish thing is not due until a week later than it was planned. yayy. I'm still trying to memorize my english stuff. In all this time, I've probably memorize 5 lines out of 30. hah. I spent so long reading all the entries I missed. With that being said, Mari, I know you didn't want this. So all I'm going to say is everything happens for a reason. And you're amazing. I think that's enough for now. I'm tired.

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[Sunday
May1st10:22pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I try not to think
About the pain that I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

Don't look back

Th.e. .w.o.r.s.t. .i.s.... .o.v.er.,. .y.o.u. ....ca.n. .ha.v.e. .t.h.e. .b.e.s.t. o.f.. ..me.. [Friday
April22nd9:09pm]
[ mood | excited ]

More ranting. Don't like it, don't read. I hate my english teacher so much. It's not bad enough that we have to do that stupid 30 line of old engligh memorized and preformed in front of the class, for no reason and will benefit us in no way what so ever in the future, but she made it worse. I was all set in my group adn she coems over and says since I'm going to be gone that I have to work alone. Okay I can understand that. I told her I get nervous by myself sometimes and she said well if you pick a conversation a friend can go up with you adn read the other part from the book while you say the memorized part. I say okay and look for a 30 line conversation. I finallyyyy find out towards the end and I ask her to write it down so no one will take it. She tells me no and that I have to fill out a form. I do it as fast as I can and bring it up and she says "you were a few seconds too late, that other group got that one." Lindsey was like but that's the only one she has to do. She goes "I said whoever brings it up first gets it." Lindsey says but she had it before then and she goes "BUT SHE DIDNT BRING IT UP BEFORE THEN. Wow. What a bitch. Yeah I understand, I guess, but come on. Lame. So now my vacation consists of memorizing a 1 1/2 page speech by Leonato, BY MYSELF, and memorizing lines for my spanish movie I have to film right when I come back. I'm missing a day of sophomore testing. A quiz in spanish. Filming after school for spanish on Wednesday. ONE practice Thursday before competition. Missing school AGAIN Friday and Monday for competition. Please shoot me. kthx.

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[Friday
April22nd6:27am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I don't really remember what's been going on the past few days except a few things. On Tuesday I didn't have any practice because of tryouts, and I have no doubt that school was horrible like usual. I lost my english book somehow and now I have to pay for it. She gave me an extra one to use until we're completely done. Which reminds me, I was so excited that we finished the book and only had one more Act test to finish. Then she hands out a paper saying we need to get into groups and each person needs to memorize 30 lines of old english Shakespeare and perform it for the class. Stupid whore. I have no idea how I'm going to pull that off. Also in spanish we had to go into groups, make a movie, assign parts, write lines, translate them into spanish, and now we have to videotape them after we memorize them. Seriously do the teachers want me to shoot myself? Cause I can arrange that. Schools been pretty stressful. Actually that's an understatement. A kinda big one. I failed my first science quiz of the year. And horribly. It brought my grade down to a c- when I had a b+. I can still bring it up, but it pisses me off when your teacher tells you that your brain isn't working at all. Isn't that like against the laws of teachers or something? :p This week has been pretty tough at different times. I'm kinda surprised I handled it all. I'm getting to the point that I don't feel anything. If your numb you can't hurt right.. On Wednesday I went to tryouts which were a joke for me because I knew everything we were going over. Last night we had practice and I'm nervous for Hershey now. We lost 3 important people adn we have to switch things around alot. I just hope we do well. I have the last tryouts tonight and I have to finish packing and cleaning tons. I went shopping for a little yesterday because I had alot of time. I was supposed to get my pallet expander thing but I have to get spacers AGAIN after vacation which hurts alot. Err. After this is our comp in Hershey and I'm missing 3 days. Ehh. After Hershey it's over until June. It's weird to have no cheerleading. Anyways I'm gonna be late to school. I hope it flies by..

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[Monday
April18th8:46pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Yesterday was perfect and amazing. Today definitely wasn't. I don't like writing much in this journal anymore. And I hate getting only two comments :(

Thank you and have a quality day

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I'm a soldier.. These shoulders hold up so much, they won't budge, I'll never fall or fold up.. [Saturday
April16th9:49pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I haven't really done much. Yesterday school wasn't too bad. I found out that I got a C in US history when all this time I was worried about spanish. I'm upset. But I guess it's not the end of the world. I just can't take anymore pressure. I feel alot better about things now. Hopefully I'll never get so upset again. This morning I woke up around 10:00ish and got ready for the spring extravaganza. I left and got there a little early, then walked down to brooks with SantaBanana and saw Namina. When we got back I did some girls make up and warmed up. We watched the routines and tumble classes. Then we went on and then after they handed out awards. I came home, took the longest shower of my life and now I'm here all home alone. I got bored and made this layout worst_isover So tell me if you want it. I would just like to say I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. He found out how much I liked the notebook movie and he went out and baught it for me :) I'm going to his house tomorrow at 7:30 in the morning. I'm gonna be sleepy. I guess this is enough of an update. I'm posting more in my other journal because it's friends only and clearly anonymous people aren't mature enough to sign their names yet so I might make this one friends only as well.

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yayy [Sunday
April10th7:57pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Yeap who's National Champions?
........Lake City Senior Open CoEd is
♥Finalllllly♥


I love my team so much.
So proud of our gym.
Mini-2nd Youth-2nd Senior Intermediate-4th and Us-1st



Fianlly the stress of this week has paid off.

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At last it's finally over, couldn't take this town much longer.. [Friday
April8th8:05pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Wow.. Where to start. This week has been pretty awful. Alot has been going on for so long, and I haven't been talking about it so it's all just built up. For the past two weeks everything has been so screwed up. School has been incredibly stressful and with everything else going on, I realized I couldn't handle it and I flipped out. I had to leave school early because I couldn't take anything anymore and started to cry, which I didn't even mean to do. I had been getting less than 6 hours of sleep every night because of all my homework, and we had an extra practice which took up the time that was supposed to be for my homework because we got put into level 3 for our competition tomorrow adn Sunday so we had to redue some stuff. I am no longer friends with the one person I thought I would be forever, no matter what. But instead of telling you all how hurt I am, I'm going to tell you how I'm actually okay now. If that's what she wanted, which is clearly the case, then fine. Why waste time on a lost cause. After I came home last night I went to sleep until 5:00 and then went to practice. I'm getting sick and it could be strep throat which is awwwesome. Right before competition too, just like last time. I'm excited for competition but nervous too. We want to be national champions sooo bad. I leave tomorrow early and then come home, then leave Sunday again for the second day. I get to see the lovely Jamie Leigh! I guess that's enough of an entry. I don't know why I'm hating lj so much lately.

Comment for me please, wish us luck :)






...loveyousomuch

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[Saturday
April2nd11:37pm]
[ mood | okay ]

ehh livejournal kind of sucks lately. Thursday was the same, I think. Practice was okay. Friday was okay too. Except for the fact that the spanish project we've been working on all week all got deleted. I was just having a bad day. I went home early to work on it because it's due. I missed a quiz in US history and I'm not sure what I missed in science. Hopefully not too much. I went tanning at 3:00 and finally got some color, even if it's sunburned. It kind of went away over night. I didn't really do anything else besides talk to my baby tons. It was kind of a weird night. This morning I slept in until like 12:30 which is incredible for me. I only woke up like 3 times too. oh my. It was raining but I like the sound of the rain. I found out the Pope died today. I'm not Catholic but that's still sad. Anyways after that I got ready adn went to Friendly's with my team that showed up. After that I went home adn spent the day with Doug and that's about it. Except around 7:00 I watched the notebook with my mom. OMG. When people say they cried because of that movie is an understatemnt. It's my new favorite movie. I'm such a girl. Anyways tonights been pretty good. I'm tired though. I feel like I have so much to do. I don't want the weekend to end :( School ruins everything. Eh, and forget that thing about my xanga because I have a brand new one. It's this. Go and look. I think that's enough for tonight. I'll write when I feel like it, or when I feel people actually want to read. By the way, did the rest of my commenters die? :(

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You almost made me cry again this time.. [Wednesday
March30th8:02pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Well today wasn't too bad. It was just like any other day. I guess it could be worse. Except Mrs. Bordue, she can't. Last night's practice went very well. I think people are starting to realize some things. I love my team. Despite how frustrated I get sometimes, I really wouldn't change a thing. They're amazing. Ben and Nick Wymen did conditioning with us and it kicked my ass. It's good though, we need to get in shape again. Our last national competition is next weekend on the 9th and 10th in Boston. Tell me if you wanna go. I came home and talked to my baby and he made my night so much better than it was. I rather not say why in this journal, but I had a very hard time last night before and after practice. I was thinking about leaving. I slept so much better last night after some stuff but I was soo tired this morning still. After school I went tanning and still, I don't see a difference yet. They insisted I don't go in very long because their "bulbs are verrrry strong" but still no evidence of that. Psht. I came home and I did my homework.. I studied alot for spanish because we have our last test of the quarter tomorrow and if I fail it I'll throw myself out a window. kthanks. Now I'm gonna shower.
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Tomorrow :)

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this poison’s my intoxication [Tuesday
March29th3:25pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Sunday was okay. I didn't get alot of candy though. I went out to eat with the family and I saw Kels! The rest of the day I did some homework and some other stuff. Monday wasn't too bad. It went by kinda good. Kindaaa. I came home and I went to sleep for a million hours. Then showered, had a huuuuge fight with Meag. Then some other stuff before bed. I slept soo good, but when I woke up I was so tired. I didn't get to bed until 12. Maybe that's why. School today wasn't that bad either. I have more homework that I should be doing now before practice though. Eh. My brothers sick and my mom took him to the doctors. I hope she gets home soon so I can go tanning. Gr. I hope she gets here on time at all >:o This is enough. I'll update later. Comment if you looove me :)



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lalala happy birthday to meee [Wednesday
March16th6:09am]
[ mood | excited ]

Today's my birthday! :)


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...I love my friends. AAALOT.
Today as been awesome. I was so tired though. I got up, got ready, then went to school. It's diversity day so I didn't have any real classes. I had to go into some weird presentation I didn't even sign up for, but it was with Ang, and Lindsey so whatev. After that we had to watch a play and then went to the gym to see this guy who's a "one man volleyball team". He beat our varsity team, 10 guys, ALL of the seniors and juniors in our grade, and our teachers. It was crazy. After that I had to go to team rec for one quarter and he let us do nothing. I got lots of hugs today from everyone. Jackie even ran and jumped on me. I love my friends seriously so much. I went home because it was early release, and then to the soda shoppe. I took a nap for a little, talked to my baby, then went and got my hair cut. After that I came home adn talked to Meag and then showered. I had cake and now I feel sick. I got 15 red, and 1 white rose in the mail today with a baloon. I got 3 cards and I love them. I'm getting more tomrrow. On Friday I'm going down to Meags and to the mall and out with some of my Windhamers. On Saturday I'm spending the whole day with my baby :) Next weekend I'm going down again to really celebrate my birthday with Meag. Today's been perfect. I love Doug. I think this is enough. <333

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[Tuesday
March15th4:11pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Last night was amazing. Today was actually good. Now I have practice. Two good days in a row..I'm not used to this :) Comment please

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i'm only..falling through the cracks [Monday
March14th6:10pm]
[ mood | eh ]

My weekend could have been alot better. I'll leave it at that. Those of you who have my other journals know why. Today was actually pretty good. It's diversity week or something at school so the classes are a little more layed back, and I don't even have regular classes for two of them. I don't have too much homework tonight, but I have to study and read which isn't fun. I had physical therapy today and it kickd my ass. I hate physical therapy. It hurts. Alot of the stuff I want to say right now, I don't really want to stay here. I'm just basically pissed at alot of things lately. I'm being ditched by someone I thought was my bestfriend. School is stressing me out beyond belief. My shoulders aren't getting better. I'm fighting more with my parents. I'm just so angry and I don't knwo what to do with it. I just want it all to stop adn get better. One good thing is that next year our coreography is going to be by the guy who owns CHEER ATHLETICS, which is one of the biggest and best all star teams in the US. We're looking at a new gym too and it's huge. I can't wait. My birthdays the day after tomorrow and I'm exited :) Yayy. I guess we aren't going to the east elite competition anymore :( It's this weekend and I'm upset because that was going to be the last time I saw Jamie at a competition.. eh. I might be going down to see Doug this weekend instead of next since I don't have competition anymore and we figured out that it was Easter weekend. I just hope it all works out. I hope everything does. Everyone says eveyrthing happens for a reason and everything gets better...Well, I'm waiting.

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